hi everyone. i'll try and briefly summarize my intro because my brain is fried. i'm 23 years old and my whole life i now realize i have suffered from copper toxicity and possibly mercury being in there too because of vaccines. also, there was high aluminum. my mother has high copper and the info i was given and through my own research, i realize that the copper was passed down through the placenta when i was in the womb.

every single day starting in the 4th or 5th grade i have felt severe anxiety, mind racing, depression, brain fog and cognitive difficulties, extreme emotional sensitivity, emotionally blunted, really bad ocd until a couple years ago, many obsessions which have made it really hard for relationshiops, feeling like i am crazy, profound exhaustion, candida, adrenal fatigue, disconnected from the world and God(like in a fantasy world or something), and many more.

a couple months ago i was hospitalized for depression and anxiety because of severe stress and being out of control of my life. i haven't been able to keep jobs despite trying 9-10 different very simplistic jobs. i just realized how i had no life and my relationships have never been good because of how sick i've always been. i just wanna be able to function and have healthy relationships and i'll be the happiest person in the world. just to feel whole for the first time would be really great.

i've stopped dreaming about my future. like i don't know if i can overcome this illness and i'm really scared. i used to dream about being an athlete and had scholarships to play baseball but the illness didn't allow me to get through college like i had hoped because of my brain malfunction and inability to deal with stress along with many other symptoms.

i don't mean to be negative but i really have suffered a lot i now realize. after learning about my family dynamics and some about my condition, my awareness is incredible but it makes me really sad realizing what i felt my whole life wasn't what normal people go through and i realize the severity of the anguish. but i know this isn't the real me and i've seen glimpses of the funny, positive, and loving person i am.

anyways, i do have hope and that is all i am living by right now. that's all i have. i was tested through hair mineral analysis because its cheap and effective way of screening body chemistry. my test showed i am very copper toxic and my metabolism is very slow. so slow that they called my copper toxicity "hidden." after learning and reading the info they gave me, its within normal range because my metabolism is so slow, no metals are being eliminated and if i can build energy, heavy metals and the copper will begin to go up on the hair tests showing they are coming out of deeply stored tissues.

there is just a lot of conlicting info and i can't handle all the info. nothing seems like the right choice. it was one of the reason i was sent to the hosptial because i can't cope. so i was wondering if the veterans could suggest some staple things i need to be doing. chelation is something i think i would probably need to do later down the road being i know the copper is stored deeply. i'm pretty sure the main thing is the copper for me but i probably wasn't able to detox the mercury in the vaccines i had when i was in 6th grade. i've never had mercury fillings and neither has my mom.

also, maybe people could write some encouraging posts of how they have seen improvements etc. is anyone else going through the copper toxicity too? from what i read, copper and mercury seem to be the biggies and symptoms are close to the same. is one worse than the other?

the exhaustion i have felt has been really bad but for the first time, i would really like to know what it is like to have mental peace. no more depression, mental racing, ocd, etc. that would be wonderful and i would be high on life literally. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

this seems like the place for me because people are going through similar experiences. i hope to get some guidance and figure out a good protocal i can feel good about. i hope everyone is making improvements and i hope to meet some good people that can support me, guide me, and i can hopefully do the same in return. God bless.

shawn