I 'm not as bad now ,but before amalgam removal I would be standing in a line like the post office or to buy something at the store and would think to myself when am I giong to wake up from this nightmare it just keeps going on forever ,severe depression, felt hot all the time kind of like the flu,brain fog,memory problems,fatigue and then would go outside and think why don't I just jump in front of a moving truck to see if this truly is a nightmare and would wake up normal again , but the thought of my wife surviving without a husband or my daughter surviving without a father would always bring me back ,people at work knew that something was wrong, I had lost about 25 pounds and rarly smiled anymore my illnes was always on my mind , I would ask myself what did I do to deserve such a horrilble punishment I felt like a prisinor within myself going through daily torcher sessions .