Sometimes you really have to push hard to break through those emotional barriers Bex (eg; can't stand being around other people).

But what you've told me about the church your currently attend (evo lot) I think I would find a different one if I were you. I wouldn't want that bunch praying over me either. just because they go through the motions doesn't always mean they have the right connection to actually help anyone.

Or, you simply get down on your knees and beg for Jesus to help you. He has never not answered me when I have been in dire need and reached the point of screaming for help. God heals when he forgives. That major big love of his, it heals us. You just need to find your way into that with him. Church is not always the answer for everyone. If I were looking for church to help with healing though I would find an Assembly of God group. They are real big on that, I have had some awesome experiences in that church. There was a charismatic church in VA I liked a lot too. But since going to a new church and asking for assistance is so very difficult, I think I would just pray. If I really really am hurting Bex, I get down on my kneees and i stay there asking for God, for Jesus to help me and I do not get up until I am better. He's never failed me yet Bex.