Hi Buzsaw, thanks for your suggestions. I really don't tend to talk about my sickness with many people in real life and am far shyer than I let on. I don't know many people at church, because half the time I don't go. I'm pretty sick to where I just stay at home mostly, or hang around my own immediate family.

They do have healing sessions at my church and I probably should start going again. They use oil too! I just don't feel comfortable about asking other people to group around me and pray. That is just me, I've always been highly reserved and the idea makes me uncomfortable to be honest.

I have indeed been on prayers lists though and have had people with the gift of healing (from Christ) praying over me before. I just have not had much luck in that area, but others have. I've seen teh miracles occur, heard of them, and they're amazing when they happen, but not everybody gets a healing.

I do believe that God does have His own reasons and I do hope that oneday I will in fact be healed. Perhaps some of this is happening for my own good, maybe I'd have gone down a worse road had this not happened. I really don't know the answers to be honest, but I know my nature well and I'm a rather extreme person when given enough health....so I wonder sometimes.

I've learned alot from sickness, but loathe it at the sametime. It's forced me to learn about health and mercury and other problems, and in doing so, it gives me the opportunity to pass on some things that helped me to other people. Other than that? I feel my life is rather "pointless".

I eat much of what you have suggested. I eat raw nuts, seeds, vegetables, yoghurt, but have eggs and meat too. I could fast a bit sure, but done it before to no real avail. I feel quite comfortable with the diet I am already on to be honest and it's been hard enough for me to gain a bit of weight as it is. I don't feel ok about getting anymore restrictive than I already am. I feel I require the protein from the meat and eggs. I CANNOT eat fruit, i have tried and it's disastrous. It just feeds the candida.

Ok for people who may not have such an extreme case, but I have tried many times to get back into fruit and I just relapse into worse candida and have to start from scratch. Will not be doing that again. I know fruit is healthy and I used to do well on it, but not these days. The same with grains, it just feeds yeast, rice included. I cannot afford to risk that right now.

Thanks, I feel a little more comfortable having sardines. I know they are very good for you too and supposedly lower in mercury! So I"m having them from time to time now.

I do appreciate your advice though. I can always limit my eggs and meat intake a little I guess and maybe force myself to go to the next healing church session <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> lol, honestly I just want to scream when I'm around other people, it's a horrible feeling. It's hard to believe I've become so withdrawn!

Thanks so much for any prayers! I think sometimes God can affect healing through our own or someone else's efforts as well, leading us to the right people in time perhaps, allowing growth/suffering along the way and forcing us to research and then help others too. I just cannot believe all this was for nothing or "punishment", I'd feel devastated if that were the case. But it is hard when prayers don't seem to be answered. That is a real test of faith!

God bless.