Thanks Rachel, I think my partner and kids keep me going, I have been researching on Dr Peatfield and what he can advise you and I think that's my best option at the moment. Just hanging on and trying to be positive that one day I'll be a lot better than now. Your all great people and its funny but all the people you meet in hospital suffering greatly are the most caring and kindest too. Shame the staff arnt the same. Tracy xxxxx