Hi Linda, yeah it is a comfort to talk to others going through it too!

Well, I think I am going to try the black walnut hulls suggested by sosick. Her own reactions to it have pretty much convinced me to give it a go and then later may try cat's claw. not sure on colloidal silver, tried that once ages ago and dont think I noticed much but perhaps didn't give it too much of a chance. It's so hard because there are so many things one could try!

Yeah, when you start noticing some improvements, you get quite startled at yourself for suddenly becoming more motivated or interested in things that you previously felt unmotivated or indifferent about. Even family members, and the guilt that goes with it is awful. You start to feel like you can't "love" or really enjoy other people, but when you start healing and getting better, the change is seriously astounding and it becomes moreso over time. You actually cannot HELP but enjoy what you should have enjoyed all along.

This is why I try and tell people who are poisoned, not to feel guilty, though it's not easy. But the deadness and the feeling of emptiness and difficultly "loving" is not you talking, it's the toxin. andy talks of this too. Sometimes people can indeed get pscyhological help, but try sweet talking the mercury into being nice and coming out <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> because if the person is poisoned, they will get little or nothing out of pscyhe therapy. They are basically screwed up by a neurotoxin deadening their feelings. HOrrible stuff, but wonderful to emerge out of it on the other side. Like night and day. But takes time.

Linda, as you improve from this, you may find you'll will be one of those people that cherish your health and feelings so much, you'll consider material things of much less value. At least that's what it did to me. Not that I ever had much value on material stuff to be honest, but you know what I mean? Things around you that you once thought important, you suddenly realise after suffering so much what is REALLY important. I guess it's a two edged sword. It causes so much loss in one area, but there is a strange inner gain that you don't recognise until you improve. Under the suffering, it's dire, hellish and you become dark and empty, wishing often for an end. So I hope you'll push on through to the other side <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" /> just so glad to hear you are feeling more feelings and more motivation, especially towards your child, really rewarding when that happens.