Demi,

I completely understand how you feel. Although I never went and got an "official" diagnosis (because I didn't want to take drugs), I'm certain I would have been told I had some kind of anxiety disorder if I had gone to a doctor.

I, too, had nearly resigned myself to just try to learn to "live with it." However, I could only put on a "show" for so long until "the real me (on mercury)" started showing. Strangers or acquaintances didn't know, but the few closer friends I had knew very well how moody, anxious, stressed out and depressed I usually was. It's also interesting to look back and see how anti-social I was...all my life I only had 1 or 2 friends at any given time. I never could get close to people because on the one hand, I was too afraid of rejection, and on the other hand, I was incapable of really being a "friend" to others because I was so wrapped up in my own problems, fears and worries.

But thankfully, now that the mercury is out, I'm becoming a different person. I, too, am a mercury detox success story! Gone are the constant (and I mean constant) worries and fears, gone are the daily multiple mood swings, and gone is the fear of interacting with people. I'm not completely cured yet...I still have an occasional bout of moodiness or mild anxiety, but it's usually directly related to eating fish or eggs or something with cilantro in it, or doing strenuous physical activity.

So yes, Demi, it really is possible to be free of this "bondage" as I call it. Once you get the mercury out, it will be easier to focus on the positive and let go of the past.

I look at it this way now...I would never have chosen to have mercury fillings, but since I did have them, I can use the knowledge and experience I've gained as a result of this "experience" to help other people and to have more compassion for other peoples' behavior. Don't get me wrong, I think everyone, including myself, is personally accountable (responsible) for what we say and do and the outcomes that result. But, I now understand how much mercury affects how people think and act, and with this understanding, I have more compassion and can more gracely respond to others.

I hope this helps in at least some small way. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />