It's really not such a radical idea... and I highly recommend it. Explore religions, sincerely but objectively, and then decide which one has a God that actually heals his people, talks to his people, leads his people, raises the dead... and then of course you have to realize that no matter which god people worship, there really only is one God, one top dog God at the top of the god pyramid and he works even among people that do not know him. Because of love. Because he even cares about those who don't know him. There is plenty of evidence, miracles happen every day.

That's a favorite question of mine to ask doctors... 'have you ever seen anyone miraculously healed?' I used to always ask doctors that when i met a new one... I truly have never had (an experienced) one answer no. maybe you should try that. Schmooze around with people other than teachers for a while, maybe try tutoring, that's a step up and into the homes of professional people like doctors with children where you can get to know them personally and have conversations like that.

In order to objectively explore religions however, you will have to let go of the 'oh come on' attitude that forms your current biased opinion that God does not exist. That will probably be the most radical and difficult thing you need to do. Because the evidence is more than abundant once you take your 'oh come on' blinders off. Proving God with evidence is actually quite easy, getting someone like you to let go of their anti-God bias is another matter altogether.

It's easier to learn with an unassuming attitide, start with a blank plate instead of one already filled with preconcieved and possibly erroneous ideas. And then, without judging, simply let the evidence fill it up and see where you are.