bg123 thats interesting, cos as I say when I first became ill I was just physically ill and kept thinking I would recover. When this anxiety and depression hit me it was within a minute and no build up to it, it just came out of the blue. Something definately hit my brain or nervous system. I would jump at the least little noise and couldnt watch anything violent on TV. I wish I could find out why, it certainly wasnt a mental feeling, if that makes sense but more pyhsical. I f you don't mind me asking how did your illness start. I always ask people, still trying to fit the jigsaw of this thing toether lots of Love Tracy xxx <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/confused.gif" alt="" />