Hi all,

I just wanted to share my recent experiences with you. I can't believe that it's been such a long time since I had my amalgams removed (improperly) which has caused me to be severly ill. There were a few months last and this year that I "almost" had my life back, but this summer I have entered another long batch of filling very ill, lost weight AGAIN, and it seemed that all of my symptoms have returned, not as severie as in the beginning, but still enough to make me incapable to function.

I am not sure why symptoms come back at the times that they do, I have tried to link it to everything that I do, or eat, but there is no apparent link. This weekend I had very bad symptoms, strong panic attacks, suicide thoughts, shaking etc... It seems when the symptoms come back, I forget what it's like to have a normal life again, and faced with living like this I would chose not to live at all. It can get so discouraging some times, it's hard to go back to work when my head pounds, I can't handle any loud noises, lights, but I have no chioce...I have to work and I cannot constantly call in sick when I feel like this.

I was stuck at home and in bed most of the weekend, I am only back at work today because I had acupuncture yesterday, and it's one of the rare things that brings me back to life.

ok I didn't mean for this to be just a long complaint, but I wish that things would look better for me after such a long time...I just hope that very soon I will have a period of feel better rather than feel worse.

Best to everyone dealing with this issue.

Love,
Nina