First, I'd like to say I'm a tiny bit embarrassed about the dramatic title I put on this thread! "Doctor phobia!!!"

I have decided to go ahead & get the mole removed,appointment is tomorrow and I'm nervous about it.
Mostly because I'm scared of the local anasthetic as I mentioned before.Scared of having some unmanageable adverse reaction.I am very sensitive to fumes,perfumes etc at the moment.

Thanks for all the alternative suggestions that you have posted above...but even if I did remove the mole myself,
as long as my health is not great I will worry it is something that has been overlooked and
need to explore all other possible causes.
I have been told I need the mole off for years &it has since changed over the last few years ,doubled in size,changed colour,and has a raised bump in the middle;
it looks suspiscious & so
if I can manage to make it through the procedure,(I am planning to make it,) I would prefer to get it tested.
It is a personal challenge for me, and I feel I have to go through with it,as it's been a worry on my mind for years and
worry is an energy robber,a master criminal.

I am not taking the once off valium that was prescribed for me.

I am trying to keep myself relaxed with

magnesium ,
camomile tea,
natural progesterone cream,
and most importantly,remembering to breathe properly.
all of which I'm doing already.

I have also heard that melatonin is great to take when you are getting/have had local/general anasthetic.
A good food source of this is bananas.

I am also going to have a lymph drainage massage the next day.

I will keep you posted.