Well, if memory serves, the first anon did in fact admit to experiencing the same - depression and wanting to end it all or be put out of misery, skie. The subject of the Anon's post was the repeated suicide posts here and the encouragement of it. Over the past months there have been many, many posts where either Tracy or Jinx have been in so much pain that they evidently felt the need to sign on here to say goodbye. Also it was beginning to appear that there was a habit of signing on and posting a pattern of regurgitative posts about suicide and wanting to die. But this thread was the first time that it seemed like they were encouraging each other publicly to accomplish the deed and that's what the issue of concern was from the first anon. While many of the Forum users have gone (or are going) through the same feelings and difficulties, they curiously are not regurgitating the same public posts about suicide. And this is NOT because those people not repeatedly posting those threats are not as sick as Tracy and Jinx. But that's already been discussed, I think.

Tracy I sincerely hope that you can find some answers and remedies for your troubles. Really hope that you can find some good support and a feeling of improvement in your drugs withdrawal group. Being given those prescriptions without being told side effects was a real crime. Also hope you can find some help with the alcohol addiction that you shared. That must really throw a clinker into the equation and make everything seem overwhelming.

And I hope you keep in mind that just because someone doesn't respond to your posts with sympathy and encouragement, that doesn't mean that their contributions to the Forum are not worthwhile.

Just because someone doesn't have your exact symptoms or life circumstances, but in reality might have different variations of your symptoms, that doesn't mean that they aren't as ill from mercury as you. But from what you shared about the awful withdrawal side effects from those drugs, I can see where you will have difficulty using reason at times -- especially if alcohol is abused on top of it.


That list of side effects that you posted in your "Word of Warning" thread explains alot about your behavior. Aggression, delusional thinking, phobias, distorted perception were some and I think it explains alot. Especially if in addition you were under the influence of alcohol while posting.

I sincerely hope you can find some peace and most importantly, I hope that you will feel better and be able to find some healing.