First, I'd like to say that I feel very badly for you both. Obviously your suffering is extreme and it is unfair.

I would also like to say that it is really difficult to keep reading all of these posts about suicide. Whether your posts are merely to vent, or whether you are making threats of suicide or you are fantasizing about it -- I wouldn't presume. I do know that there are so many people who read this board who are suffering and it really is difficult to keep reading these suicide messages.

I am no stranger to depression so I would not dream of telling someone who is suffering to "snap out of it." But I would like to suggest that you might want to bear in mind the affect that your suicide posts might have on others who frequent this board.

Many are suffering. Many have been poisoned. Many are trying to find answers. Many are depressed. Many have felt suicidal at times because of the mercury poisoning. Many are sick with myriad illnesses as a result of mercury poisoning. Many are leading a torturous existence through no fault of their own.

Yet, you don't see all of them venting about suicide, threatening suicide or fantasizing about suicide in messages they have posted here.

If you're just letting off steam, perhaps it would be appropriate for you to indicate that's what you're doing. Or if you two (i.e., jinx and Tracy) feel better about things by "making suicide pacts" like you have in your messages above, perhaps it would be better to do that with personal messages.