Considering I used to drink every single day, me being tea-total is an unbelievable situation. Firstly because things got so bad I was forced to give up and secondly that I actually managed to successfully give up. (But things got SO SO bad I was forced to.) Some years, in my 20’s, I went down the pub every single day. In my late 20’s I was out 5 nights a week, out on the town.
Don’t forget I smoked pot everyday for 10 years too.
On the 1st January 2008 it will be 10 years since I gave up smoking.
I had to give up ALL my vices. Every single one of them! ……(head in hands)…
My diet does now allow the odd cheat, I have some special eco friendly, sugar free, dairy free, gluten free, soya free dark chocolate. Tastes lovely, but because it is free of all the usual crap I don’t lust after it. It tastes good, but not wonderful. I have one square at a time, maybe once or twice a week. keeps me sane, just to be able to break the rules.
But, yeah, I miss the booze, but more than that, I miss the social contact. That’s what it was all about. Hanging out with clients, friends, colleagues and now I can’t do that. Muscle weakness stops me going to the pub. Its just too uncomfortable standing up for longer than 10 mins at a time…..and the booze makes me ill still <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />
Ummmmmm…..grumbling a lot this morning aren’t I!
Slept pretty bad last night. I was itchin’ all night long. Looked in the mirror this morning….i have big scratch marks all down my back, front, arms and legs.
Do you know the famous Chinese proverb? “Go to sleep with itchy bottom, wake up with smelling finger!” LOL….sorry could not resist that old chestnut! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />
The itchin’ is now non-stop. I am constantly itchin’ it is very annoying and uncomfortable and unpleasant……but……hallelujah! I know when this is over I will feel better. This is what happened last time too, so my fingers and toes are crossed this will be a giant step forward for me. I just hope my shoulder pain is reduced.
Black gunk…..no its not charcoal. I had a fish about in there and it was slimy jet black deathly evil $hit. Charcoal has a kind of grainy texture, and this was not like that. I think it may have been mucoid plaque
http://www.shazzie.com/raw/articles/mucoid.shtmlThe first and the fourth picture looks like what I had.
I will ask in curezone when I get a moment.
I need to read up about it, because I don’t know anything Mucoid plaque,
Lovely! Anyway…..moving on…….. cookies…..i still eat my cocmacapump cookies every day. I do benefit from all the strange ingredients, especially the Maca powder which has been good for my libido. I tripled the maca powder quantities. I have a new ingredient for the next batch….blackstrap molasses. I will bake them today. ….. I guess they could be classed as a cheat? Maybe, maybe not?
Muscle weakness is a mercury thing. I returned on my 4th round of dmsa, which was the nasty round. The 5th round did not make it go and since I have been on all these cleanses so no more dmsa.
I am real glad I stopped the rounds. No way would I want all this itchin’ together with rounds. If I feel the mercury moving, ie brain fog I can always start dmsa and see what happens….but right now I got enough going on.
My mum called, but I have typed enough for now
