Right, I cannot recall ever being anything but nice to you Tracy and I truly do sympathise with what you are going through. I know sometimes are you are nice as can be and other days, completely off the handle.
Most sincerely, there was a day when even I thought evil was just a concept. But I was wrong, it took Jesus to show me the truth, and what a truth, and how it had been devastating my life for so many years too. Truly I do sympathise, I have a pretty good idea of what you are going through and because of everything you have told us over the months there isn't a speck of doubt in my mind as to the source.
You know, when you hear the saying, 'Jesus sets you free', this is exactly what it's referring to... free from the bondage of spiritual junk/evil that ruins our lives and separates us from God. I have a pretty good relationship with him by now and he has shown me lots but like most people, I still have a bit of a problem with sin in my life which is most likely how I ended up here because it isn't normal for me to be sick and he has actually healed me of many things... I have literally felt his hands move through me and fix things, not a joke. But you know, every so often I think I still question God's authority too much, don't trust him fully enough, and I have always had this obnoxious problem of a few too many men in my life which I am trying very hard to deal with though I fail from time to time. So quite a bit of sin here and I pay the price. All I can say in that regard is that I am still a work in progress.
But, there was a similar curse on my life also, call it whatever you want I guess but the end effect was pretty much the same. And Jesus broke that curse, made the devil flee from me, and that, thankfully has never returned, I don't think it ever will, and the blessing of what he did for me extends to my daughter and beyond. I cannot even begin to tell you what the devil was doing to my mind. Jesus gave me my life back, and despite the sin still in it, I have had peace ever since. I do believe that that peace is the result of my relationship with God, again despite the sin that remains in my life, which I am getting a lot better at dealing with btw, He gives me lots of help these days, sends angels even, really.
There was a British evangelist guy by the name of Derek Prince who worked a lot in this area, you might consider picking up one of his books. I think he passed away a few years ago but there were people who worked with him and they remain. There are also a few charismatic/pentecostal churches here and there who deal with this type of thing pretty well. Prince used the word 'exorcism' and personally I am not sure I would approach a church that claimed to do that specifically, I prefer the approach of pentecotal/charismatic 'deliverance'. They pray over you real hard, in numbers, and it's pretty powerful. They help build your faith. Unless your faith is already rock solid you'll need the support of a good church family because going through this is a pretty rough road and I don't recommend you go it alone.
But in the meantime I will refer you to the same website I referred Linda. You might want to start listening here when you have a chance:
http://www.sidroth.org/site/News2?a...;security=1042&news_iv_ctrl=1185I have seen many people set free by now Tracy, and again there was day when even I was a doubter, in the reality of evil not of God which a little bit of difference between you and I, but still I wasn't easy to convince. It's essential that you want to be healed though, you can't be healed of things you cling to, and I do hate to say it but the psychology and doubting of God is a big problem in that area.
