Benza, you have a very serious condition and you really should consider finding a reputable integrative medicine doctor that can first do some serious IV chelation and then see where you are at after a couple months of that.

It's hell to go through at first and can get expensive but it might save your life. I was in really bad shape, and possibly I could have recovered without the chelation but I was looking at a very long time frame for that to happen on it's own, not to mention my suffering in the meantime. Right now, you are still alive but from everything you've told us, your 'life' is essentially gone.

I would spend the money. If all goes well, you'll make it back downline in no time. Beg and borrow if you need to. The longer you stay in an unhealthy condition, the longer it will take to recover, and then not all the damage can be reversed if too many things accumulate and add up over time.