Hi Linda, lol I know. I wonder too if there is more to this SAD thing now too. It has been winter here and a bad one (at least for me with my pathetic circulation)....I wonder if there is a connection with my terrible cheating on my diet. I have really been strangely depressed and something is setting of a trigger of somehow searching for relief in eating.

I was not given probiotics by the doc when he put me on those antibiotics last year (not on them anymore). I was only on them for 7 days. Amazing I got this sick. Mind you, one guy did the same and never recovered (scary). I told him to stay on the diet and not give up (good at giving advice, but not so good at following it). I dont know if he did or not, never heard back.

I dont know about psyh drugs. I was only on them for a rather short period of my life (age 21). I simply reacted to them with so many side effects, that long term use was not really possible. But they did do terrible things to me at the time. However, doing nothing didn't seem to be an option either. Either way I was a mess. But again once I got on the diet, that's when things improved greatly (at that time) and would have remained that way had other things not occured later on! I dont attribute what I have now to psyche drugs, but rather multiple factors (infections/ residue mercury perhaps /cavitations/ incompatible composites... maybe). Nothing is a sure thing though.

New Zealand like anywhere has it's really great places and mundane ones. Some places are breathtakingly beautiful. So much so that if I see it on TV, I think "is that my country?". so yeah I dont really live in the breathtaking areas <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />. Queenstown is probably the best if one wishes to tour here. The South Island is the place to go for beauty. I live in the city areas more and I should be ashamed because I have really not seen enough of my own country. This country is the kind of place where you can leave one area and go to the next and go from extraordinary to completely ordinary (like anywhere I guess?).

My ancestors all came from England, Ireland, Norway etc. Sometimes I'd like to leave here and go to those places. I always feel some kind of affinity to them...I've been to europe and part of me didn't want to leave. I felt something over there that I do not sense in my own country. Perhaps it is the incredible history of those places? I felt a much stronger atmosphere over there. I cannot describe it, ...quite ghostly/eerie almost. Something I have NEVER felt before. I soaked it up, though it was not like I was visiting great historical castles either. I have no real idea exatly what it was.