We're quite a pair then Bex, LOL. Even my naturopath doesn't quite seem to understand what the biological sugar cravings are like. Just don't eat it, she says. I'm beginning to wonder if the SAD influence is already beginning; that causes carb cravings. The depression first began in a September and one of the first symptoms I noticed was a bizarre craving for bread. I am not a bread-person at all. I was exercising at a gym regularly, not eating a lot of sugar, but those carb cravings were there, as well as fatigue and sleep problems setting in. I've failed again today I am afraid. This is a big battle for me as it is for you. It's nice to have the support here though, I don't feel so alone in this. I've stopped the chelation until I can manage to deal with my eating problems.

I hear what you are saying about becoming dependent on things. I feel the same. I guess the important thing to know is when they really are necessary to function. Probiotics when you are on antibiotics, yes. Thyroid hormones when you're not sure there's anything wrong . . . tricky. I wish I knew what else to suggest. My naturopath online would be able to help you, but her focus is on helping people who have been on psych drugs. Technically yes I think you'd be accepted on her list, but as you say it sounds like most of your problems don't involve psych drug withdrawal. I could be wrong though. Sometimes they can mess things up badly and leave them that way, don't underestimate their power to cause you grief in a hundred different ways.

Hey, what's it like over there, if you don't mind my asking? I've known several people from NZ and they were passionate about what a special place it is. I'd love to visit it someday. Do you live in a city or out in the countryside somewhere?

Linda.