That is such a lovely post. I know from personal experience that some of you guys have literally kept me alive during the darkest hours, that before I became ill, I would never have got through. I have never met such an incredibly, unjudgemental group of people. As some of you know I am going through the most horrendous sedative withdrawal at the moment. I am suffering literally hell on Earth and with my recent loss, have had real trouble focusing on any kind of future. One of my friends on the forum spoke to me on the phone yesterday and the support from people is incredible. The majority of people are so caring, even in dire times of their own. We all, every one of us deserve to get our health back, not some of us just for ourselves, but our families as well. I am so grateful to people on here, and even though the majority of us have never met personally, how close I feel to most of you. It's lovley to know you have people going through the same suffering to turn to. I know personally, that if my health improves, there's a lot of you I'd love to meet up with, because I feel such a strong love and gratitude. Love Tracy x P.S. I think from my post about God some of you must have realised that personally I had no belief in life after death. True I was a devout disbeliever, as were my other two sisters and my partner Keith,who is the most rational thinking person, believed there is definately nothing after. Well I had an incredible experience after my sister died, but kept it to myself, because I knew I was coming off the sedatives, and questioned my own state of mind. However both my sisters are in full health and very rational and have both had unexplainable experiences last week too. We still questioned whether our grief was so strong our minds were playing tricks, even though we really knew they couldn't be. But the most unexplainable event happened to my partner. There is absolutely no other explanation for his experience other than my sister is without doubt still somewhere. We have all had no choice now but to accept we were wrong. I have been almost compulsed to tell you all, in case it comforted some people, but at the same time reluctant because I don't want to shock or upset anyone. I have told a couple of people I thought it would help. I hope all of us get well and live to old age in peace and happiness, but I know that when our time comes we definately are going somewhere else. x