I just wanted to say a thankyou to everyone for your kind thoughts and wishes. I miss you all terribly. Unfortunately I am going through a double whammy! The doctor had put me on sedatives. Unfortunately no one told me the ones I was on are harder to withdraw from than Cocaine. I can' t begin to explain how ill I feel and even under the circumstances he has withdrawn them. I can barely function physically or mentally. I havn't slept in days which dosen't help. The grief hit me big time yesterday and my dad is staying with us and is going through hell. Everything is pretty surreal at the moment. I hope I feel well enough to be back with you all soon. All my love Tracy x