In case it helps anyone on this thread, I want to share what changed in me mentally after my amalgam remove.

I didn't write about these changes in my story because they had not occured yet or I didn't yet notice they were gone.

- Inability to go to sleep. I took me 2 hours each night to get to sleep. My mind would race and my heart would pound and I was always too hot.

- Felt horrible if I underslept or overslept. Now, I feel OK if I do either. The difference is amazing.

- Fear of authority. This is gone.

- Looping over conversations. I would re-live conversations for hours wondering if I said "the right thing".

- Evil imaginations. If driving, I would constantly imagine car accidents. If in a conversation, I would constantly imagine saying something stupid. If on a high balcony, I would imagine falling off. At night, I would imagine someone breaking into my house. No matter what the situation, I would imagine something bad happening.

- Low self esteem and anti-social behavior. I would avoid social situations because of my low self-image.

- Inability to concentrate/focus/listen/read. Reading a book, I would be half way through a paragraph and find that my mind was somewhere else and have no idea what I just read. The same would happen with conversations. I would also have trouble understanding deeper concepts.

- Short-term memory. I would not remember a person's name for more than a few seconds after they told it to me.

- Long-term memory. I would remember faces but not their names.

- Compulsive programming and not trusting myself. I would make sure everything was straight at the dinner table. I could not go to sleep until everything was done that I wanted to finish. I could not multitask. I had to finish one project before starting another.

- Lonliness. I suffered extreme pain of this type since my teen years.

- Compulsion. I would be computer programming (part of my job) and feel thirst and get up and head to the kitchen before realizing what I was doing.

- Fear of rejection. Related to low self-image, I would avoid relationships for fear of rejection, even though I had a number of relationships with women who I knew would have married me.

- Fear of commitment. Related to the inability to trust myself, I would not commit to things for fear that I would fail or that a better opportunity would come along.

- Depression. Related to my low self esteem, I constantly felt pain and thought about suicide almost daily.

I now realize that I may have been diagnosed with OCD, and clinical depression had I not been so good at hiding my feelings.

These issues went away within 3 years of having my fillings removed. It has revolutionized my life.