Demi, I have also felt the same, not being able to just leave all my troubles behind and have some fun for a while. I also spent a lot of time alone, but then I realised there ARE people out there who are different to my "normal" healthy, care-free friends. People who have lots of the same issues as I got myself after being metal poisoned. It's just that these people hide their issues and are pretty anonymous out there. I have gained a couple of these new friends and I often have interesting, meaningful conversations with them, as opposed to my pre-poisoning friends.

Keep your eyes and ears open for these people. They have an incredible understanding for pain and hurt and will NOT treat you as a freak. My new friends and I also laugh alot about ourselves and our phobias and this is a really, really good thing to do.