Hi Demi,

So glad to hear that youve found someone and i wish the two of you all the happiness and joy that comes from having the Lord in a relationship. I also have someone very special in my life but today im having one of the worst days of my life. Ive never felt so low and so alone..... the love of my life has stood by me through all my ups and downs and has pulled me through some of my darkest moments, but i cant stay in his life anymore, i feel like such a burden to him, he wants to go out and "live" and i cant becuase im so scared to leave the house in case i freak out and theres no one to help me. Ive stopped "living" and i cant expect him to just because im sick. He is a pilot and i freak out every time i drop him of at work, i cry the whole way home because im so terrified something bad is going to happen while he's up there, im obsessed about losing him. I cant expect him to stop living his dream because im so sick. Ive prayed about it and asked the Lord to take my fear away and to help me trust that nothing will happen to him but it never leaves me. I gave my life to the Lord about a year ago and i constantly scrutenise my faith. Is there a God, Can he hear me, is he there for me, questions, questions, questions...... i cant anymore. Ive packed my bags and im leaving his life so that he can carry on living a happy healthy life like he desserves. I know this sounds like im feeling sorry for myself but im really not, its just better this way. I just wish someone would turn my brain off so that i could stop feeling and thinking, even just for a few minutes so that i could have some peace in my heart and mind. Im sorry to share my sob story with you but i need to tell someone about it. thanks for lending me your time, and if you can please say a little prayer for me, every bit helps.

Take care and God bless.