I'VE BEEN PSYCHOTIC SINCE YESTERDAY OR EVEN THE DAY BEFORE THAT I DONT REMEMBER, I'M IN FULL RAGE ALL THE TIME, SLAMMING DOORS, THROWING BOTTLES AT WALLS, SMASHING CUPS TO PIECES, I CRY ALL THE TIME AND JUST CAN'T STOP IT, AND I CAN'RT THINK AT ALL EVERYTHING IS CLOUDED , I'M SLIPPING INTO INSANITY AND IT FEELS LIKE THIS BLACK HOLE TAKING OVER YOUR BRAIN, THIS IS IT, YES GOD YOU WANTED ME UP, HERE I AM UP FOR GOOD , LIFE DESTROYED, BRAIN DESTROYED, PERSONALITY DESTROYED, SOUL UP IN THE ARSE, CONFINED TO PSYCHIATRIC INSTITITIONS FOREVER , I HATE THIS THING WHAT THE DID I DO WRONG?!?!
WHY THE AM I GETTING WORSE EACH DAY??!
WHY THE IS ALL THE MERCURY GOING INTO MY BRAIN SHUTTING IT DOWN MORE AND MORE, WHY BRAIN ?!?!

W H A T T H E H E L L D I D I D O T O D E S E R V E T H I S ?!?!?!?!?!?!!?????????????????


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Jinx, this state in this toxicity is extremely dangerous and I have been there (still go there).

The rage it produces is excessive frightening and uncontrollable and I would often revert to throwing something or threatening physical violence (which is not even in my character). yes plenty of times I was nearly carted away and I dont hold my breath that it will never occur.

Jinx I do not know what on earth to offer you because I know in your state it can be near impossible to read what others are saying or taking in information. You have tried just about everything. I hope you are not taking antifungals because I know they can increase toxic overload from too much aggressive killing of yeast at onetime. Diet yes if you can remain off any junkfood/sugar that is natural and obviously helpful no matter what someone has.

ONe does not know what to offer you because we are not professionals, people have tried but this is such a difficult area and so unpredictable. I would not take anything that is going to stir the mercury around worse than it already is. I would not take antifungals in case they release more metals from yeast cells. I would eat as well as I can and continue to avoid sugar/gluten etc. But if you feel you need some form carbs like fruit, you may get away with one or two pieces a day.

But as for supplements? NObody really knows what will help or make a situation even worse. One can take guesses, but we are taking unqualified guesses, even if they do come from those that ARE qualified, very often they need to see you in front of them and evaluate you compeltely, full testing etc.

I wish someone would just get you in a room and fully protect you and get those amalgams out of there and chelate you with a good protocol. I cannot stand to hear of this kind of suffering, but know it well.

Jinx I dont know what to say, because nobody really helped me either when these things occured. I was left in a psychotic state many times over and lucky that the neighbours did not take action (hearing me yelling etc). This stuff can do almost anything to a person!

I want to help you but do not know how.

VALIUM

valium when i totally freak out gets me through, i absolutely HATE psych drugs but it helped me for the last 6 months. i hope to be off it and sleep tabs in 6. as crazy as it sounds marijuana (which i would not reccomend) got an ex-friend of mine through 6 years of hell (life circumstances.. he got off it over 1 year, changes jobs got married and is happy now. i would have to add that another friend smoked it for a week, went psychotic and has not recovered in 10 years. there is a 'happy high' company here in australia that sells legal alternatives to people who wanna chill out, almost the same effects as some bad stuff.. just not well known herbs etc.

extreme things call for extreme measures or something i heard,

my hope is u will not get any more fillings drilled till u feel SERIOUSLY much better, you might go from feeling crazy.. to BEING crazy and never make it back. u r not crazy now.

BENZA I AM ALREADY **********BEING******** CRAZY DONT U SEE IT THATS THE WHOLE F UCKING POINT OF THIS POST,

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AND I AM NOT GONNA GET BETTER COS IAM CONTANTLY GETTING W-------------O--------------R---------------S----------------E !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wat can u do right now to feel better. i feel even when my mind is going nuts but i FEEL like i'm ok, im ok
i'm going to be sitting up until about sunrise, its only 10pm i don't sleep at night, its hell, does anything make u feel better? like HEAPS of coffee or smoking cigs, anything? i absolutely do not feel ok right now, its hell.. but u must be peaking for some reason. find somwhere u feel safe, hug a bear (i do) pull the covers ova your head. sometimes i take a fair bit of codeine pain killers.. but like take it easy. if u r that angry, EXHAUST YOURSELF, run until u can't breathe or move anymore, ride a bike until u fall asleep from fatigue.

jinx: there are only a few reasons why you feel worse ,either you are doing something to mobilize the heavymetals and your body can not handle the extra load or your body is becoming more sensitive to the heavymetals or it could be some other type of toxin causing these problems ,does anyone else in your family share your symtoms in any way?

NO, NOT A ONE THING OUT THERE MAKES ME FEEL BETTER, AND NO IT IS NOT ABOUT ANGER OR RAGE REALLY

IT'S ABOUT MY BRAIN SHUTTING DOWN AND ME NOT BEING IN R--------------E----------A--------L---------I----------T--------Y ANYMORE , NOT COMPREHENDING THINGS I CANT FUCKINH THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AN NO, NOONE IN MY FAMILY SHARES MY PROBLEMS. I FEEL LIKE IM DYING

you need to get your fillings out. then chelate, chelate, chelate...

Dear Jinx you know i know exactly how you feel, I've experienced being dragged into that void myself. That was what my near death experience post was about. Its the weirdest feeling. I have never felt that close to death before. I know thats not in your mind, cos I've felt it and it scared th s**t out of me. I'm not sure how I got out of that situation, and I know this sounds absolutely nuts, and I'm scared of the response, but I 'm going to say it anyway. I knew I was dying, I knew for certain if I let go I would have died. But the thought of leaving people behind made me cling. Every time I closed my eyes I felt that pull, its totally different form going to sleep. You know for certain if you just let go, you will, for good. That's why I started the Does God exist thread, cos I thought if I do end up going soon, I wish I could find that faith and have the certainty I'll be with my friends and family. I know this sounds bizarre, but I've said to people that I wonder if on the first night of my illness I was meant to actually die. Thats how it feels, like the real me left and all the s**t and bad stuff was left behind. I am feeling really ill at the moment mate, I mean really physically ill. And why its happened to us and all the other sufferers on this forum, I just don't know. I have the most bizarre symptoms, just keep coming and coming. Someone on the forum said it felt like dying of cancer, I think they are right. Please don't anyone reply to say stop whining or being depressed. I really don't feel depressed, just saying its like living in hell and Benza I can totally relate to what you've said, could be me. Sounds stupid I know, but I have a teddy bear from when I was four and if Im feeling really bad at night I cuddle mine. I guess its like some sort of comfort All my love to everyone Tracy xxx

I CANT TAKE THIS ANY LONGER, I WOULD JUST LIKE TO END IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jinx, my advice is for you to take magnesium and large dosages of B vitamins. I also suggest St. John's Wort if you aren't on any prescription antidepressants. Some people also like the idea of using detox teas(Yogi?), although they are also diuretics so you would need to step up the amount of magnesium you take if you use these.

Jinx,

If your problem truelly comes from mercury poisoning, try Vitamin C. It is an inexpensive, affordable and powerfull anti-oxidant. It diminishes the symptoms caused by heavy metal toxicity. The trick is to take it every 4 hours because Vit. C has a very short half-life in the blood stream. Start at 500 mg each 4 hours for 3 days, then raise to a dosage of 1000 mg per 4 hours. This will give 3 to 6 grams of Vit. C per day in total. Don't be shy to go to 9 grams per day. Your body will use as much of the stuff as it can and the surplus will be eliminated through the urine by the kidneys.

And try to meditate if you can. Observe the inner silence as much as you can and ask God with your heart (not your head) His help and support in this difficult time.

You will get through it. Hang on.

Epistemologicus.

Jinx, have you tried olive leaf extract? I added it to my regimen yesterday, and my head is much clearer today.