Thanks so much, Laura. Without this board to post, I think I would have gone out of my mind with worry by now. I am so very thankful to people like you, Russ, Sandra and Elaine who are here.

As I learn more about the subject perhaps I can contri bute a lot more. I have just suffered from OCD for 20 years that its' really hard for me to face some things. For a long time I thought I was to blame for my illness, that I was weak, that I wasn't controlling myself enough, but considering I showed symptoms of poisoning very soon after having the fillings, to have coped this long (and some real hard stuff has happened to me in my personal life) while they dumped more amalgam in my mouth, then I think I, and my body, is stronger than I think <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Thank you so much for the info on the detox. That helps immensely. I just couldn't get my head around it because when I was reading my anxiety was getting higher, and the more anxiety I get the more brain fog I get.

Interesting about the detoxing too quickly. Do you think that our bodies can get addicted to the mercury in a way that it can to nicotine? Maybe getting it out too quickly causes like withdrawls?

I can relate to what you say about being single. I know that my problems are why I am not married or even ever been in a relationship. Because of the OCD I get panic attacks and somtimes have withdrawn myself from social situations and avoided relationships. It's hard to meet men when I don't talk to them a lot and avoid opportunites, and also when my mind is so cloudy that it's sometimes hard to maintain a converstation. I get problems with memory. Also dealing with infertility, hip problem, skin hypersensitivity gave me real low self-worth. It's been a tough ride. I just hope I come out a stronger person because I do think it's best to take the positive from a situation.

I am religious too - Christian (but I think God interacts with all who worship him). The time when I had the filling go wrong, I had a cross in my jeans because I was terrified (phobic of dentist) and was trusting God. For a long time I was really confused how it had gone wrong and I'd ended up with a tooth extraction - I just said to myseld, God knew best. Now I say thank you God! Another tooth full of mercury, and I really don't know what my health would be like now. Its so true that sometimes what you don't know is better <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> I was clinging to God and He was not going to let them put that stuff in my mouth. (That was the only time I took God to the dentist with me <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> )

From what I have read, maybe mercury attacks our most vulnerable gene or something. My mother has fillings and also has the same symptoms as me. People could say we have hereditary illness, but I would say that I have half her genes so am likely to react very similar to a poison to her.

Thanks so much for being here. I have decided to have three teeth extracted and the other 4 filled. I have only lost 3 of my adult teeth (1 wisdom) so I am having some other molars that are far back out.