kriminal -

1)I'm 24
2)I'm a male
3) self pity? self loathing? immaturity? not even close to hitting rock-bottom?? Well let me tell you something. I was a working and I think a mature person 12 months ago. Quite succesfull and intelligent. After exposure from just two fillings drilled out, my mental functioning started RAPIDLY declining! I have no iq anymore and dont understand basic things. This state I have been in is getting worse and worse everyday, it's going fast enough for me to notice it. EACH DAY I feel more of my brain, the lights shut down/go out. And yeah perhaps I do feel like a self-centered teenager now, but that does not come from immatiruty but from what this disease does to your brain. In my wildest expactaion I never thought my functioning I would get bad so much - Never. But I have and I'm only 24 and I don't if ti's gonna be reversible at all given how much possible (surely fuctional) damage has been done. And as for relying on my parents it's not about them making decisions, it's about them giving me support which I SO MUCH NEED and money since I'm so sick I can't work anymore. So don't preach me about not knowing what hitting rock bottom is, if you dont know anything about me. Though I know you wish me well, truth is I'm getting alzheimer-like disease and I can't do anything about it.