I don't know, Linda, it seems to me that yours is a very negative approach toward anything Christian. Like many. You search here and there and everywhere for bits of truth, which you do find, but you seem to want to disinclude Christian/Judeo beliefs and call them something else. The bible is a lot older than Buddha or buddhism. I agree that buddhism is interesting, and it seems to be a very peaceful religion also. But you can't find god there (he doesn't exist in buddhism) only enlightenment of sorts. I have buddhist friends. Very nice people, intelligent, industrious, compassionate. I find it odd though that they kneel and pray daily to a scroll, a piece of paper, that they truly believe is sacred and endowed with some sort of power.

I never said you are a cop-out. I have been exactly where you are and it was something I had to go through I guess. But I did realize at a certain point that I was disincluding everything Christian. I never worshipped any other gods, I simply studied those things because spirituality (of all sorts) always interested me.

Quantum physics took a rather unique approach quite a few years ago that interested me a lot. Rather than incessantly trying to prove God, they sought to disprove God. When i speak of God here, I speak of God, the almighty all powerful creator God. Not just little spirits that beckon you to worship them and threaten to hurt you if you don't. Anyway, the result of that is that many scientists became believers, and it was shortly after I began delving into that area that He really showed up in my life. My feeling is that of all things, God will not let himself be disproven. A round about approach but if you really want to know if He exists, maybe try proving that he does not.

I guess the feeling of black and white comes after such an experience as that, and I know what you mean exactly. To me, things are a lot clearer, much more black and white than muddied grey. But it's a good thing for me because prior I had so many questions, so many weird ideas. Simply knowing now that God does truly exist and that he is incredibly awesome, has answered so many questions for me.

I certainly do have many more I'd love to ask him but I am afraid to to ask tell you the truth. I don't want to anger him with insolence. He shows me what he needs to in many different ways. I am also quite sure he knows every question my soul asks. I am happy to live just under the edge of his wing so to speak, and have faith for the rest. The bible is fuill of his promises and in a lot of that we do have to have faith that he is God and will keep his promises, and us. It's important to trust him.