Elvis I loved your post. I'm really sorry you've been so porrly, but you are just fab <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> Cheered me up no end.

I'm feeling rather down at the moment. This may sound silly, but the Harry Potter book and film have come out and it's made me happy. Doesn't take much to cheer a person up when most days are devoid of anything cheerful. Haven't seen the film yet, finished the book this morning. I'm not a fan as such, but I've read the books and find the whole thing entertaining, if not great (i.e. canon-worthy) literature. It really drove home what the depression is all about. While all the anticipation and excitement was going on I felt much more my old self. My soul was stirring to life again. I slept incredibly well last night in spite of overstimulating myself yesterday with all the reading, which is unheard of. After I finished the book this morning -- which, I might add, had a bit of a disappointing finish in my opinion -- I started feeling sad, then started crying. I realised how much sadness was buried inside me, that I'd been numb to for so long. OK, back to my normal life, which is dull and pointless and confining right now. The numbness of the depression is now coming back. I had overwhelming sugar cravings for a while, body probably trying to attempt to sustain the boosted feelings. Never mind, I know it wouldn't have helped if I'd given in.

How can having a child and staying home with her, make me feel like my life is over? I love her more than anything. There's just so much that's wrong with this situation, and it's taking so long to change.

Anyway, I've come back to my usual forum haunts, looking for people to talk to.

I don't know if I have the enthusiasm to pursue what I was pursuing here really. People for the most part are entrenched in their beliefs and very happy to defend them in whatever ways seem personally convincing. I'm not going to change mine either. If anyone would like to check out Joseph Campbell and his research, he really opened my eyes. Comparative mythology. Catastrophic floods have very probably happened in the past, and many cultures wrote about them or made stories about them. Go read the Babylonian flood myth, which was around before the Biblical one. It's very clear that the Biblical one was based on it.

I still like the idea that if you are going to be religious, you should try to accept that there can be other paths to the truth. I have a problem with a person believing that their god and their one way of viewing the world is the only right way. It promotes an "us" vs. "them" mentality, which as I said, has started wars in the past. No? Then what part is religion playing in Northern Ireland? It isn't exactly uniting people.

I'm going to go see if I can get some cheer out of the rest of the day. I feel deflated. Elvis, take your vitamin C and call us in the morning LOL. I hope you're better soon.

Linda.