Do you know guys, I really did start this thread cos I suppose I was feeling pretty sorry for myself and questioning why me? why now? But maybe it's an outlet, I mean what I'm trying to say, and maybe not very well, is that when we're ill it does us some good to vent our feelings in any way we can. The weird thing is I started the thread and yet you guys leave me standing in this area, you have so much knowledge compared to me and as I said I've been busy doing the medical stuff trying to get some answers and get myself better in some way and I admit when some people came on and blasted me for things I posted I suppose they were right in a way cos I don't have enough knowledge or insight to really have started this off. I guess I was just whining and venting. However WOW you guys are amazing and I truly hope you are getting something positive from this. I will read through it all when I have time, its mind blowing stuff. I hope i'm not a whiner, although I know sometimes I am now. Its a shame when your ill cos your not always rational, not your real self and you know it but cant help it. Sometimes I know I get angry and say things even on the forum that I regret, but I think we have to forgive each other and remember we are all having a tough time. From the little Ive read so far you dont all agree but thats ok as long as you consider others points and I know I havnt always done this. Hands up, Im only human, its just kind of nice to see a discussion going on thats obviously so important to people, and guess what its not about Mercury for a change. Maybe thats a good thing. SOMETHING DIFFERENT. We all need a relief from that sometimes. I'll carry on reading and hope I learn from you. Sorry to anyone I've offended, its never been intentional. Really this forum is great and I love to read everyones comments. Love to you all Tracy xxx