Aaron, I don't think anyone who ever held such apocalyptic views was ever happy. This is a way of seeing the world which is tremendously negative. I'm sure it's coloured by your illness, but please try to look around and see the positives too. You say peace is never achieved. It is. People get into fights and wars happen, but you can't tell me there is never a resolution to them. Science, medicine and law are not working? Well there are flaws in all of them, no one knows that better than us on this forum, but what a sweeping judgement to just say that they are rotten to the core. I can't see that modern medicine does a lot of the good that is credited to it, but it does come in useful sometimes, and I have to say I'd be happy to go to a hospital and have a doctor fix a broken leg. I wouldn't let them give me drugs, but I thinnk it's safe to say they would know how to fix me up.

What do we need saving from? How are people any more wicked than they ever were? You can look far back into history and see terrible things that happened, it isn't just today. But through all that, people were living, loving, taking care of each other, finding health and happiness. Many of us on this forum may feel we are lacking those things, but that isn't to say they don't exist, or that we can't ever have them again.

Suffering and death have always been with us. They are part of life. But they are not the only things in life. Stop watching the news and reading the papers, they play up all the depressing stories they can find and are out to cause a shock. Look around your own life and see what is there. There must be people who care for you. Things you yourself have achieved. What made you happy in the past?

I challenge you to go through one day and write yourself a list of good things you see or think of.