You are true to yourself Tracy, and that is admirable. I have sometimes wondered myself if I would be happier getting into Catholicism again. I think the job I would have been best at is a priest, but even if I'd wanted that, girls-not-allowed. You're right, there's a lot that is comforting about religion. And there is a lot of power in a group gathered for a ritual. I stood in church once, not actually wanting to be there but obliging my parents, and there was a part where people held hands. To my complete surprise, I felt energy going through me as soon as I joined up. And of course, there's the safety and support that come with being part of a group. Also, I like the mysticism in Catholocism. However, as you can probably see if you've read my posts, I've changed too much to be able to go back and just say OK, I believe now. I can see a lot of positives and a lot of knowledge of life in many different religions, but I don't think I'd ever be content to subscribe to the specific beliefs of only one. That isn't to say that I can't be a spiritual person, and that is something I keep working on. I would be doing more if I weren't ill.

Maybe there is another kind of group you could join Tracy. Something local. Do you have any hobbies? Maybe it's a silly question for now. I can't even drag myself out to my tai chi group and that's something I really used to like, so maybe you are in the same boat there.

But yes, thanks to everyone who has contributed and kept the discussion interesting and civil. Like I said, I love talking about things like this. Where do you discuss them if not in a church, LOL. I'm missing my Wiccan friend in the US, we had such fantastic chats.

Linda.