I have been reading through this thread again and can't work out if there are more than one Anons adding posts. This is where it's helpful to have a name given, because if people come on as Anon there could be just one of you or many. So it gets to the point where as the threads progress,we have no idea who we are really answering. 'YOU WOULD SOUND LESS LIKE A SELF-CENTRED EMO TEENAGER WHINING IF YOU SAID SOMETHING LIKE I BELIEVE IN SCIENTIFIC FACT ABOVE ALL ELSE" Don't think you've been paying attention, I asked the question, Does God exist? I think a lot of people who are ill sometimes ask this. I couldn't say I believe in scientic fact above all else, when A) I havn't studied much about it and B) I'm still at this time opened minded about everything, and I have learnt a great deal from some of the valid posts on the thread. I do not consider myself to be the illest person on the Forum, or anywhere in the world. That would be ridiculous. If you think I whine and feel sorry for myself, yes in some ways your right. Well it's not so much feeling for yourself, but I suppose a kind of grieving for what you've lost, what plans you had that have had to be changed. But I think as a parent it's very hard because you feel such tremendous guilt at not being able to all the things you want with them. Many mothers on the forum have expressed this and I guess there maybe fathers too. I think it's only human nature to feel these things sometimes, and if I were lucky enough to truly beleve in something and gain some comfort, I would feel very priveledged. But if I don't feel it what can I do. Maybe one day it will change, I hope so, cos as I said it must be wonderful to feel that comfort. Until then I guess I'll just have to carry on being open minded about things Tracy