Tracy, I think it's important to question from time to time any beliefs that you have. I think this is how we grow as people. And occasionally we may find that we have to adjust our beliefs due to new wisdom we have gained. Many people avoid doing this because it takes them out of their comfort zone.

I think people have been trying to make sense of the world, and things that happen to us, as long as we have existed. It's comforting to think that if we see injustices happening, well at least the good will be sent to heaven and the bad will be sent to hell. It's actually the philosophy that the church used in the middle ages to keep the toiling peasants content with their hard lives, LOL. Because there's a reward waiting. Or there's the idea of karma, that if you do evil you may not be punished in this life, but you will be in the next. I personally do not subscribe to these things. Like I said I believe we are all on individual paths, and it's up to us to make the most of what comes our way. I think that if we are good people at heart, we will touch the lives of others in a positive way, and that is one of the most important legacies we can leave.

You are asking the classic question: if a god exists, why is there so much unfairness and suffering in the world. My belief is that, things just ARE. Why did my husband's mother die when he was 6? It created harship for many years. I can't see that many positive things came out of it. It just happened, that's all. Like I said, what matters is how we deal with what comes our way, and how we can use it to learn to grow.

I hope you don't think this sounds patronising Tracy, but have you thought about finding a counsellor? It might help to have someone to talk to about all the things that have been happening to you lately.

Best wishes,
Linda.