I can understand where your all coming from and I am so happy for all those who feel peace and happiness. I suppose some of us just can't. I attended church every Sunday until about 5 years ago. I was even baptised a few years ago. But still I question. People say the lord never gives you more than you can endure. Then why do so many people commit suicide, cos they can't endure any more. Also I still find it hard to believe the meek shall inherit the Earth and the more you suffer, you will have a great life when you die? Sorry I want my life now, not just for me but also my family. If God, if he exists, is in control then why like Bex said to me this morning, evil seems to be taking over the whole world. I fully agree with her, it is happening, the world is changing for the worst every day. I would love to believe again and gain strength to fight because God is our salvation, but sorry I can't. If someone could give me some proof I would be happy to listen, but my bet is none of you have anything. People cling to things for comfort when things go wrong and it's only my opinion of course, but I've known people who have gone back to church just so they get to heaven. I am going to spend some time reading the bible again cos I need to try to understand, but at the moment it just seems people need a crutch and think God is the answer. I hope with all my heart I'm wrong, but if he does exist, he surely shoud be doing something to stop evil things from happening. In my dad's word you come into this world with nothing and you leave it with nothing and when your dead, your dead and there is nothing else. I'd love someone to prove me wrong, truly because I'd like to believe I'll see my dead family again, but somehow it just don't ring true. Tracy