Tracy, I believe God exists. My faith dwindles because of my suffering, but I have no real doubt that He does exist. I have also been witness to a supernatural miracle overseas amongst thousands of other people. One that was undeniable, shocking and enough to cause a person to be close to passing out. Brilliant. The only time in my life!

That is easy for me to say that because I saw it I know. I would wish for everybody to witness what I did. But I believe in the bible as a literal history book and a literal future.

I also believe that suffering has meaning and is not just bad luck. I cannot comment on how a person will be judged, that is God's business. And this kind of toxicity is diabolical and many times all but destroyed my faith. But I do know one thing, He understands it completely, more than we do, intimately. What it does to us.

I do not think any suffering is in vain! I also believe that He will deliver, but in His time and HIs way. I think we live in strange times and believe these times maybe what is referred to as the "end times'. Not the end of the world, but a winding up/winding down of an era best left behind.

These are my beliefs, I do not expect other people to agree with me. Just wanted to share that with you Tracy.