Well I'd be interested to have this explained I've had 2 horrendous and violent marriages, 4 miscarriages and a ruptured ectopic and cervical cancer. Ive had to bring up 3 children by myself, paid off ex husbands debts to keep him out of prison, been to college for 5 years while working with disruptive and autistic children full time at the same time. I think actually I was an incredibly strong person as I did all of this by myself. So what I'm wondering is how many more years do I have to suffer to get that person back. Believe me I've never been weak minded. I use to swim 50 lengths before work, do all the cleaning, sort out all the kids problems. I can't see how this illness could make me any stronger what its done as Dawn said brought us strong people to our knees. Tracy