Hoi, wait for the replies to come in here . . . I think there are a lot of deeply Christian people on this forum.

I am still working out my own beliefs. Ongoing illness can call into question everything you ever thought you believed in can't it. I do not personally believe in a being who is in control of my destiny and everyone else's. I do believe that there is more in heaven and earth than are dreamt of. There is a life force that binds every living thing. As far as conscious influences on our lives . . . I just don't know. Sometimes I feel that I am being steered toward various things, or that certain things happen for a reason. I can't say more than that.

Maybe when you are feeling a little more settled, you could try learning some meditation techniques, or take up yoga or tai chi. You might be surprised at what you learn just from opening yourself up to the universe and listening.

Linda <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />