An excellent post Linda. This is the kind of response which is unjudgemental, factual,and sympathetic. You are totally right, when you say, if we are poisoned we have now control over our feelings. I think this was the biggest shock to me, cos before the illnees struck over night, I was a totally different person, now just physically, but emotionally to. That was the biggest shock to me and I hate it. Its just like when you have the PMT angers and you know your snappy and irritable but just can't help it. Thats what it feels like, you truly can't control these things. It's a really vile illness and for us poor mothers, especially of young chidren, very tough. Then when other family problems come it feels like you just can't deal with them. Tracy xx