you know, that's funny, how do you know I'm anxious? are you with me right now? fact of a matter is I'm not anxious at all, and that's bad cause I should be with the situation I'm in. yet I don't care at all, the only reason I'm writing here is because there is some leftover of my brain that still has awaraness.
or how do you know how much I really do process? How do you know If I process things correctly? because it *seems* so on the forum? well, cause if I was I would be participating here more often.
Do you think I come/write here at any time or only when I feel strong enough? cause it's the latter, the rest of time I spend lying in bed cause I can't get myself to do anything.
How long do you know it takes me to write a post or process things?
How do you know you coould have a normal conversation with me live?
My heart isn't racing nor am I breathing rapidly/shallow. No anxiety.

And many psychitric illnesses arise overtime with one being less productive, not just overnight like your aunt's. And I see myself shutting down more and more. There's no real way for you to tell me that I'm not right in what I'm wiriting cause you can't verify it. I am going through this, and wouldn't be taking people's time if it weren't that bad.

Do I have anxiety? no. Do I live in "fear" (cause I dont feel it)? yeah hell I do, cause I have good reasons for it.