If you don't mind my asking, have you been on any psychiatric meds at any point? The language you are using, "thought disorder," etc, sounds like psychiatrist-speak to me. I think you've done well to resist the effort of others to do things like put you in a psych ward. However bad things are now, they would only get worse there because you'd be drugged. If you have a history of taking these kinds of meds I can offer some help.

Otherwise, like I said, maybe you could give us some more details and we can brainstorm some ideas. What supplements are you taking?

Linda.