Dear Richard I'm so sorry for sounding off at you like that, I truly am. But something so terrible has happened in my family that I am in the worste state ever. I don't want to go into too much detail at the moment, maybe later when I'm feeling a bit stronger and grounded. But thank God for Dawn who I was able to ring very late last night. In a very short version and maybe I''ll explain things more at a later date, but my 18 year old son and his boyfriend literally tried to kill me. I know it sounds bizarre and I havn't anywhere near come out of shock yet. But it is a true sad fact. My son has never laid a finger on me in my life but he told me something that brought me to my knees and then he tried to kill both myself and Keith. We had no choice other than to call the police and have them arrested. I still fear for our lives now. I'm sorry if this all sounds very weird but Dawn knows what happened and what state I'm in Fortunately I have a good doctor now and he is coming to see me tomorrow to try and help. What I need more than anything is sleep and to switch off. Unfortunately wish I could use your techniques Richard I really do cos all I've done is cleaned all day and cried a million tears. Anyway sorry mate I know your only trying to be helpful, it's just my life at the moment is so surreal and now I have so much more healing to do, if I can ever come to terms with this. Sorry Tracy