I'm so sorry you seem stuck Bex. You are doing everything right, you've learned so much. It just seems mystifying that things aren't improving. I hope you are still willing to consider options and try different things. Maybe mercury still really is a problem, or at least something that happened in connection with the dental work. My hunch would be to try to boost your immune system too, though without knowing what the specific problems are it is hard to know what to say.

I want to help all the people whose doctors are failing them. Can't see myself becoming one though. Even if I won the lottery and could go train, I'm not sure if I'm a doctorly type. I'm more of an artsy than a facts-and-figures sort of person.

Yeah teaching would be nice LOL. No one here wants a part-timer to teach English apparently. I've signed up for a return-to-teaching course this autumn that runs two days a week and gives you some pay at the end, though it isn't a huge amount of money, and I'm going to have to borrow from my parents up front (again). I need a job like a person crawling through the desert needs water, for my psychological well-being more than anything else, but I guess I'll just have to trust to luck, and I'll probably have to do some supply teaching for a while (joy).

That reminds me . . . I got a phone call from the thought police the other day. I had to fill out a health questionnaire for this course and thought I'd better be honest and say I had been on an antidepressant. A honey-voiced woman phoned me and asked things like what I took, whether the depression was job-related, whether I'd had depression in the past, if I was OK now, etc. I very happily told her I'm fine and that it was just a blip. Nice, isn't it, how they're prepared to stigmatise you for having had a mental illness. Making this a possible bar to employment is really going to help people get better. Well if I have to go talk to them at their office, I can quite easily smile and be happy and convince them I'm tippity-toppity I'm sure.

You get good at pretending to everyone else that you're OK when you're not, don't you LOL.