I am so afraid guys. many of my other symptgoms I have learnt to deal with, but this anger is getting worse, I never believed I could ever feel like this. I wake up with it now every morning and its there all day. I never would never lay a finger on my kids and never would but I snap and they know theres somewthing very wrong. They have chosen to stay away from home as much as possible , even sleeping at friends houses. I cannot believe the things I do. Last night I ripped up the only photo Keith has of his mum and dad and his dad is dead, I Knew I was doing it but couldnt stop myself and at the same time felt so ashamed. I dont understand cos nothing changed I have a beautiful house children and partner but I am turning into this monster that I cant control and hate. Last night I even packed a bag with the intention of going away cos I dont know where this will end and if I trust myself. Honestly I am more frightened of being this than dead. Hugs Tracy I am so scared, Im everything Ive never been