You will get there Jinx. I was "venting" here but I also believe that I will get better. We are invested in our healing and want to do it the right way, rather than go to the doc and get drugs. Not many people already see this much of the truth.

I've had little windows now and then where I don't feel so bad, and my emotions come back. They don't usually last longer than a day. Do you get those? Every time they've happened I've made a mental note of what I was thinking and feeling, so that the rest of the time when I am numb and in a brain fog, I can hang onto that and know that's how it really is deep down. Just because you don't feel the love for your niece, doesn't mean it isn't there. I don't feel the love for my family right now, haven't done in a long time, so I try to be loving in what I say and do. I know, it is upsetting though. It's like your humanity has been stripped away.

I see that you've been struggling and that people here have given you quite a few suggestions in the past. And on one of the threads here recently, someone wrote emphasising again the importance of diet and supplements. I can't stress this enough myself. Before I started dealing with possible mercury issues, I was working on trying to heal from damage done to me by an antidepressant. I joined an internet list run by a holistic health practitioner who has been helping people get off their drugs for over 20 years, and she does it via the diet and supplements route. I've seen people with bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, you name it, some of whom have been on cocktails of drugs for a decade or more, stop their meds and be well. This healing approach works for many conditions because it is what the body needs to be well.

What is your diet like, and are you taking any supplements? Have you been chelating or have you stopped that for now?

Don't lose hope <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> For some of us it just takes more work to find what works, but we can do it.

Linda.