I can totally relate to how your feeling Veggijuicer, I have 3 children, one 23, with a grandchild of 1, a son of 18 and a daughter of twelve. I was fit and healthy until 3 years ago and I was a very energetic and bit of a whacky mum. I worked with special needs and disruptive children in some of the schools my two eldest went to. Theyve grown up seeing me working hard, bringing them up mostly by myself and after work we use to have such fun and good times. We use to have their friends sleep over all the time and loads of family parties and stuff. Basically life was fantastic. Then bang I got poisoned severely and life changed beyond all recognition. I grieve for my 12 year old and wish I could do all the things with her that I did with her elder sister. It is so sad for us as parents, I have been open and explained things but it dosent change the fact that you want desparately to be as you were and have all those clothes shopping trips and stuff again. Maybe someday. Hugs Tracy