Hi Linda, it is really hard sometimes to know what depression is exactly related to, - underlying illness or simply disastisfaction in life (or both perhaps...). But to me? you are at least doing something to try and find a way to hopefully lessen the problem, even if it isn't mercury at least you are addressing it in case there is some factor there.

You must feel really isolated and I feel profoundly sorry that you do not have enough people around you where you get more adult and outside stimulation and those that could come and visit or family/friends babysitting and giving you and your husband time together. I "try" and do this for my brother and his wife, because I see the strain and see that they simply 'keep going" but you can tell they get NO time for eachother.

Kids are a parents life, I know that, but I still feel that extended family who can help out and relieve, would do well to do this more often, because I think people like me who are not married and do not have kids, actually have the means to be an aid to others who ARE.

I actually feel useful when I can do this, it's rewarding that I feel like I can help. I wish you had this!!!!

But I do know that illness like this can be subtle and it may seem to lift when your mind is off things, but at the sametime, if you were truly healthy? You would find it very hard to get down to it. This is what I have found anyway. When I feel really well, I find things that normally upset me and leave me feeling disastisfied and depressed, no longer seem to have the impact...so it really hard to know for you if it's totally related to circumstances, or there is a toxic motivation going on here as well, somehow emphasising the feelings of depression and isolation, whereas normally under completely normal health you may find it harder to feel that way.

I just hope that you start to pick up more, that perhaps it was a bad chelation round for you (you get them too). Maybe you do need to do more DMSA......