i thought this post would fit well in chelation experience so far.

i would say my IQ in the last 7 months has gone from 180 to.. possibly 50 or lower, i was a genius and honestly prided myself too much on intelligence, but there are worse things right...?. i sleep around 14 hours straight every day, everything is a blur, although one thing has improved, i think my coordination is better i can now eat a meal with a knife and fork without multiple sclerosis type movement disorder.there was nothing wrong with me before i got these things out safely. i think the whole deal is too complicated, 50 million different ways to chelate, one makes someone sick the other makes them better, one wrong move and your in trouble, i think its very scary.

i rarely speak to anyone, i would have talked to people i knew in the day before all this started more than this entire 7 month period.

something is seriously wrong with my mind, although except for not talking, i look quite normal, the only thing someone would notice after a while is instead of not speaking much, i only speak when prompted, and then only very briefly. "yes, no, whatever" i spend most of my time if i am around anyone in using simple words to say i cannot speak.

my view of earth and humans in general, is very poor. if i ever recover, i think i would rather join a monk monastary (however u spell that) where u choose not to speak but are able, noone i've known has stuck by me in hard times, and they were all quite empathic people, although i do not feel (funny to say that isn't it) as empathic as me.

i am mostly past the suicidal part to the just waiting in hell part. i just wait for each day to pass, and take as little drugs from the docs as i can, to bear the pain, and when i sleep, or get so tired i have to, i am happy.

right now just to post this i've taken valium, heaps of pain killers, melatonin, smoked about 20 cigarettes, mostly just trying to slowwww down and get to read some stuff here and write.

i used to write in asseembly, and c++ and could spend hours coding programs, although going into comparisons is useless, simply drinking or eating anything for the day is a huge challenge,

if i had my time again i would say, PULL all my teeth out and i don't even care if u give me false teeth although that would be nice, just don't drill the stupid things.