Hello,

I can't believe it's taken me so long to come across this website and this wonderful forum, but I'm glad I did. I wonder if it was even meant to be this way. If I'd found a quick and easy answer to what my problem was, I wouldn't have learned everything about health and nutrition that I have.

I still don't know if my amalgams are my problem. I am in no doubt, though, that having mercury in my mouth is not a good thing.

I have had clinical depression for the last 3 years and nothing will lift it. It is worse in the winters and at first I thought I had SAD. I spent a lot of money on light visors and a light box. They weren't a huge help.

Next I came across a site called Radiant Recovery, which gets you to stop eating white flour and sugar. I felt a little better but again it wasn't a huge help.

By now I was having trouble coping with being deeply depressed and having a little girl to bring up. Mummy was usually so fatigued and unmotivated that I had trouble getting out of my chair. So I started a foray into what I saw as my last resort, antidepressants. Not only did they not help, but I discontinued them too quickly and was left with drug damage as well as depression.

I found my way to an online site that gives holistic health advice to people who have been on psychotropic medications, and began learning about diet, nutrition, and supplements. This was a year ago and it radically changed the way I think about these things. I now do my best to follow the Paleolithic Diet, though sugar addiction is still an on/off problem for me. I also take a range of high quality supplements, which I was pleased to find, includes everything recommended here apart from extra selenium, and Algin (which I am working on getting hold of). But even with all these wonderful nutritious changes to my life, the depression still wouldn't lift.

Everyone now seems to think it's a lifestyle thing, that being home with my little girl has made me bored and lonely and depressed. I've thought that for a long time myself. But when the depression struck, I remember being so happy. I'd lost weight, was going to a gym, and was fitter than I'd ever been in my life. Why would depression suddenly strike out of the blue like that?

The only other possibility I could see was amalgam poisoning. I had no amalgams in my teeth until 2 months before the depression began. Then I had 4 all at once. 2 months later, depression. Hmmmm.

Unfortunately, our savings has been drained for quite some time and I have been having issues with trying to get back into employment, it's been difficult. So I've been having the family dentist take my amalgams out. She says, "if they were toxic, they'd be banned." Ummm, yeah. She wouldn't even bother with supplementary air. When she drilled the last filling out, I actually had to request to wash my mouth out, and to my horror I saw a silver trail with gritty bits come out. I know, I know, I am playing a deadly game here, and I would not recommend this apporach to anybody. We just don't have the money for me to see a proper dentist for this and are in debt at the moment, so I can't see when we would. As it is "only" 4 fillings, and I've been on a good supplement regime for a year, I am keeping my fingers crossed that I am not going to get horribly ill. if I do I expect I will still be here on this forum and you can say "I told you so."

My final amalgam of the 4 is coming out next week. I have a supplement called Detoxica that I ordered from a small business in Nevada. it's supposed to help boost my glutathione by giving me its 3 amino acid precursors. A holistic dentist in London uses it and recommends it.

So that's my story so far. I hope I'll be able to come back here and say I'm starting to feel better in the not-too-distant future. I can't be sure that the amalgams have been the cause of the depression. Physical symptoms have been lacking for the most part, and they can also be connected with depression just as easily as with heavy metal poisoning. I'd be pleased if I've finally found the answer though. It's been an incredible journey of learning and enlightenment.

I'm looking forward to reading more on this forum. It really is just what I've been looking for, and it seems very supportive and informative.

Thanks for listening,
Linda.