I understand. Since i found out 3 days ago that i have all the symptoms for mercury toxicity..i've been upset, angry, crying. I'm so mad..that i wonder how i can possibly get better..getting better means that i have to continue to live in this world where people find it ok to lie and let millions of people suffer and die. Just so they can make money. I don't think i can ever be the same after this and will never trust anyone, especially a doctor ever again. I feel that i want to do something and warn people about the dangers of mercury tooth fillings. But, i know most people will believe the dentists and think that i'm the quack. I just have to talk to people who can understand how i feel. I tried to tell my mother and the response was almost laughing at me as if i'm ridiculous. It took me 3 days of screaming and sending over research reports to try to convey the seriousness of the issue. I still don't believe she understands what i've been going through. She asked me why i'm getting so upset. Can you believe that? Why am i upset!?? I was trying to explain that i was angry for the uneccessary suffering that i have experienced for over 30 years and that it didn't have to be that way. My mother is not so understanding..she wants me to be happy for the fact that i finally realized what my problems stem from. I am not happy b/c i've lost years, have been miserable and can never recover all the lost years. I may never get married, have kids and do all the things i dreamed of as a child. All b/c I innocently sat there as a kid and let people put deadly metal in my mouth. I still want to know how a PHD in Chemistry (mother) could let their child sit their and be filled with mercury. I asked my mom how she's a chemist and didn't know. And she said..oh i knew the dangers of mercury. I had my mercury filling taken out over 15 years ago. I'm thinking why the hell did you let your kids have them then. She said she didn't know we had mercury filings. I said how about the fact that i have 11 mercury fillings ( mommy dearest..:( ...kidding). Anyway, thanks for letting me vent! If anything i'm realizing that i can be a good metal detector. I realize the tension the nerves in my gums feel if there is metal in something. So if anything, i'll go to the beach and just become a metal detector. Maybe i'll find some good treasures.
bye!