I must echo this anger; it really makes it hard to committ to getting better. I just get so pissed off I have devote my time and resources to fixing this problem that I wonder why bother? Even though logically I know it's in my best interest. I wonder if this "hopeless inertia" is just a mercury symptom and once I get the poison out I will feel much more motivated about life.

In the meantime, I wonder how others deal with the fact that a good chunk of their life was needlessly taken from them, and what motivates them to continue getting well.